I'm not sure if I always had the capacity to love so deeply or if this feeling was created the moment I fell in love with her. All I know is that I've never been in love until now. I never felt so much for someone that my heart pains when it realizes she's not near. I lose my breath when I look at her. Every day I wake up more deeply in love than the day before. She brings sunlight to my world and makes me dizzy with her words.
Time has never been so defined as the days and hours until I see her again. Every second that passes is a second closer to being together. I anxiously await the moment our eyes meet again. The moment I am holding her hand again. This is the only time I feel complete. The distance between us will melt away. The lonely days and nights of making conversation transform into amazing days and nights of making memories together, our memories. A time that is just ours where there is no need to sit and wait, no ocean to fly over, no time difference, no barriers.
I treasure every second I am with her. It is the only time in my life that I truly felt I understood the true significance of a moment. I held on to it tight, every day, every hour, every minute. I let it engulf my soul just like the way her "L" in "I love you" seems to wrap itself around the phrase.
It is the most real feeling, yet I find it hard to believe. Hard to believe I could love so deep and have that same love return my way.
thankful